I was sitting in my magic chair the other morning, thoroughly enjoying the peace and serenity that comes from that chair. It was handed down to me by my mother, and is my favorite place to go for some quiet time before heading off to begin the work day. I was settling in for a few minutes of being in the now, communing with Spirit, and calming my thoughts in order to simply be. Usually, calming my thoughts means acknowledging that I had a thought but would think about it later, then letting it go, because this moment in time was my special gift to myself when I didn’t have to do or think about anything. However, on this particular morning, one thought popped in to my head that I couldn’t seem to get past – “Where do thoughts come from anyway??”
So these were my thoughts as I was trying to not think:
- Are homo sapiens the only species that thinks and plans?
- Bible scripture tells us to be like the sparrows. Do they think? Or is everything they do purely instinct?
- Don’t give it a second thought.
- Penny for your thoughts
- If you think you can, you can.
- What are you thinking?
- What were you thinking?
- Don’t even think about it!
- Your thoughts become your reality.
So obviously my quiet time didn’t turn out like I anticipated, but I enjoyed it nonetheless. These thoughts continued to stay with me throughout the day. The thing is – I know I’m an over-thinker. I’m a first-born so it comes with the position. I plan and organize and try to not have any of the scary kind of surprises, otherwise known as mistakes. I know I’m cautious, and when beginning a new venture, I research and Google and plan and figure out as much as possible ahead of time. And after all of that, I may still be afraid to take that big first step. The analogy that was ever so tactfully given to me was now I know everything there could possibly be to know about the bike, but at some point, I’m going to have to actually get ON the bike in order to go anywhere with it.
So even though my quiet time was less than quiet that morning, it was still fruitful because there was a divine lesson given to me. Over-thinking causes stress. Stress causes a whole lot of stuff I don’t want in my life. I found a wonderful article about over-thinking (http://themindunleashed.org/2014/09/8-ways-stop-thinking-find-peace.html). The lesson that really went home for me was the part about Spirit already being in that place of my future that is still unknown to me; the part for which there can be no planning. That thought brought me a tremendous amount of comfort, and ever since it found its place in my head and heart, I haven’t been over-thinking quite as much. I know it’s going to be okay, one way or another. And isn’t that what makes life wonderful, all in all? Having peace of mind, with some (not-too-scary) surprises mixed in, trusting Divine Order to work everything out, allowing me to enjoy the gift that is the present, rather than stress over the future, guiding me towards what is mine to do, helping me to discern what is not mine to do. That is the quality of life that I want for myself. I think I’m getting there, thank goodness!
Are you an over-thinker? What lessons have been brought to you? Please share – you never know when your thoughts might be exactly what somebody needs, and I’d love to hear them!